NurAisha; not you, not us.

2011-12-15T21:21:00.000+08:00

2011-12-08T23:30:00.001+08:00

HEHE HERE YOU GO AISHAAAA!
LOVE YOU~

2011-12-08T00:08:00.001+08:00

happy.

2011-07-20T23:09:00.000+08:00

Z, I love you also means I love you more than anyone loves you, or has loved you, or will love you, and also, I love you in a way that no one loves you, or has loved you, or will love you, and also, I love you in a way that I love no one else, and never have loved anyone else, and never will love anyone else.

I'm a fucking mess.

2011-05-27T18:44:00.000+08:00

When did I last post? Yep, this blog is partially dead.

Life's about school, studying, family and friends. No time fr anything else. Oh did i tell you? Apparently, i've no life. That's pretty much about it.

Look at me standing strong.

2011-04-22T16:00:00.002+08:00

When you're going through hell,

KEEP GOING.

To anyone.

2011-04-16T15:09:00.001+08:00

We could have had it all.

2011-04-16T14:54:00.000+08:00

Lets pretend all of these never happened.

MY LIFE'S ALL GLITTER AND RAINBOWS, BITCH.

2011-04-16T14:45:00.001+08:00

SO GONNA DO THIS TO THAT BITCH.

Five god damn years.

2011-04-12T22:50:00.000+08:00

I remember all the late night talks and all the words I was comfortable saying to him, but I never would have been able to say to anyone else. I remember all the songs that take me back and make me smile. I remember all the promises we both knew would be broken. I remember all the moments he took my breath away and how he knew more about me than I thought anyone could. I remember the games we played, because we talked so much we couldn’t think of anything to say. I still think about the kind of person I must be to have thrown that all away.

It really is not easy to forget someone who gave you so much to remember.

Me is too cool fr school.

2011-04-12T22:38:00.000+08:00

Been pretty busy these days. Either with family, school, friends or my.... Uhmm my e, hehehehe. Today's only the second day of school and i have 2 years to go with these guys and girls. Ahuh, gotta do this with or without Effa. Thank god Hadila is still in the same school as me and thank god i have Fir in school. Me lurve me fwens. I'm quite contented with everything now. n_n

Nah the same applies.

2011-04-06T12:31:00.000+08:00

I just think it's so irony how we all love each other, but we don't really like one another.

Love love love i want your loveeeeeee

2011-04-06T01:33:00.001+08:00

Picnic with the other 6 at Sentosa. Eat like pig, dipped into the sea, douche(?) ball, kayak, volleyball, captain ball, bury Roshan in the sand, dip inside the water again, showered with Azilah, Hadila went off, we went fr 3 sets of skyride and luge. Had one of the best days of my life, i swearrrrrrr.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Meeeeeeeeeow~

2011-04-02T23:51:00.002+08:00

picnik.

2011-04-02T23:35:00.000+08:00

Picnic at ECP with family today, woop woop. Good food and good companion, nyet. Saturday was well spent, i must say. Now give meh Monday!

Mum promised to buy me the billabong slipper i want and ANY jeans, woooooo~

YOU. ME. BED.

2011-03-31T16:21:00.002+08:00

This hurts so, much.

2011-03-31T16:18:00.000+08:00

I dislike being replaced. I dislike it when he said he would love me no matter what and that I would never be replaced but he meets someone new and all of a fucking sudden, I mean nothing. It's like I am nothing, like I never existed in his life.

I feel like i just lost a part of me

You're worth nothing.

2011-03-29T01:13:00.000+08:00

THESE THINGS TAKE BACKBONE.

So lets go back to the first time i saw you.

2011-03-29T01:09:00.000+08:00

Ok so, met Effalisyah to return my nametag at Lido and then we had lunch cum dinner at Bin Talib. Saw Hakim around there and i was like asdfghjkl, lol long time no see, thatz why! We wasted time walking around Far East while waiting fr Fir. After that we met Fir at Bugis and walked down Haji lane and ended up sheesha-ing at Nabin's. Fir's treat by the way! Shucks, i couldn't even smoke, i kept coughing after every puff. Burrrr, such a loser, i know. But it's ahtay cause somebody reminded me to not take in too much tobacco, hehehe. *_*

Home by 2200 cause Effalisyah is leaving me tmrw! :(

Thanks Effalisyah fr the day and Fir fr the treat! Luv you guyz alot.

♥.♥

It would be fair if you fell fr me

2011-03-28T02:38:00.001+08:00

Yknow i can't give you winter in the summer and summer in the winter

REMEMBER, WE ARE SLUTS!

2011-03-28T02:22:00.000+08:00

It has been barely a week but i miss you already, hehehe i luv you sho march.

♥

Innocent gesture.

2011-03-25T02:33:00.000+08:00

I should stop complaining of being fat. These kids would be happy to be me. I'm so unappreciative and so... Unthoughtful. It's crazy why i'm feeling all heart broken and sad and etc etc.. I think about unnecessary stuff and these kids?

I always wonder, while i'm doing this, what are others doing? Like some would be eating and some sleeping and some having the pleasure of their life and some getting married and some making out and some are dying and crying, yknow? Like..... Amazing la.

And awesome to be me, nyet. :P

Going to the doctor with mum tmrw, i hope the doctor don't tell me any bad news, sigh why must i be sick. Ok srzly, i should stop complaining.

Fuck yea strong girls.

2011-03-24T23:07:00.000+08:00

And even when hope is gone, move along move along move along just to make it through.

Meowwwww~

2011-03-24T22:57:00.000+08:00

I miss Smarty, i miss having someone who would cuddle with me at night, let me hug him tho' my legs weigh like elephant's, who would sit with me on the couch and watch my favorite television shows and sleep on my lap when i'm surfing the internet, calm my tits when i'm crying, wait on me while i shower.. I know i've got oscar to do all that now but you grew with me. :'(

I like guys who likes cats.

My ex, my primary 6 buddy, my friend.

2011-03-24T16:09:00.001+08:00

Nothing, i tell you, nothing.

2011-03-24T16:06:00.000+08:00

Had to go to school to send my SATA report so i woke up at 1000 and headed there alone. Fuck yea, i'm so independent, ehehehe!

Had heart to heart talk with kakak last night and I got over frustrated and I told her 'if i see them outside together, i make sure i punch her fucking tits' and kakak reminded me of some african womans without clothes dancing naked and their tits were like uh, geleber-geleber? LOL KAKAK TOTALLY MADE ME LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE. And then kakak told me abang asked if i had a tiff with my boyf (when it's actually over between us) and then i had my primary school friend telling me abang cares eventhough he don't show it. Mhmm, i've been busy being in love so much that i forget that my family are there fr me more than anyone have.

When they tell me i need not be sad cause i've got so many people who cares more than he does, i thought it was total bullshit. Now yknow whut? I have my family and friends, and nothing can ever top that.

♥♥♥

Sometimes I just feel so lost.

2011-03-24T01:49:00.000+08:00

I know this is stupid but i'm still hoping one day you'd say hi and then everything will be alright. No, i don't expect us to be together but i just want things to be okay.

I'm fine, just not happy. I need a real fresh start, I need to be happy.

It has always been about you.

2011-03-24T01:00:00.001+08:00

You had me. You had me and then you left. It has nothing to do with me, it’s all about you. And it’s always been about you: what you need and what you want. You know, it seems like you only want me when you can’t have me. You like the chase and that’s all. So you know what? You can have it.

The chase and that is it? *yawn* You fucking bore me.

Auntie love you sho much, shayang.

2011-03-24T00:11:00.000+08:00

Brought bulat out fr the first time today, with Effalisyah. Thank god he was sucha good boy, he wasn't cranky at all and he fell asleep perfectly on my arms, hehehe! I luv this kid, and Effalisyah too. :)

It really hits me.

2011-03-23T01:31:00.000+08:00

I've not been sleeping peacefully these days. Cause my feelings woke me up in the middle of the night. Le sigh~

You did me good.

2011-03-23T01:03:00.000+08:00

Had a good breakfast cum lunch cum dinner at Pizza Hut with these three girls. Thanks fr the treat ahuh, Hadila.. And the other two girls fr making me so hyper and happy. Love you girls so much~ n.n

Now I'm all excited fr Sentosa with the other 3 boys, hehehe.

HAPPINESS IS A FUCKING CHOICE.

2011-03-22T16:01:00.000+08:00

I am controlling my hungry stomach till i meet these girls in a while.

♥

NO ONE LOVES YOU LIKE I DO.

2011-03-22T02:12:00.001+08:00

I just realized that I've been single for over a month, time flies pretty fast, ahuh? Guess we fell apart too fast, so we got over each other too fast, and he moved on too fast, i got replaced too fast. No denying how much it kills but i survived through it all. They told me i've went through this once. But once or twice, the way it hurts, it hurts like the first.

He wasn't the best, but he's the fucking best I ever had.

I've no idea why i screwed up through the whole r'shp. But i did, and guess whut, karma's slapping me back right now. Sometimes i still wish i could lay on his bed with him and then he'll just hug me and we forget the world.. But i got myself replaced. I still look fr him in these strangers. Won't deny it, i still miss him so fucking much.

But why would he matter when i have my girls and my gayboy?

Thanks Effa fr the late night calls and listening to my cries every single night. I know you're sick of listening to me whining and complaining and repeating the whole dramatic situation all over again, but thanks, fr just being there when i need someone most.

And duh, thanks gayboy fr calling me up all the time and fill up my time, and talk to me till i fall asleep most of the time. I would have felt so much lonelier without your texts and calls.

xxxx

And also, thanks Hadila for calling me up and ask how I am doing and listened to my cries and the whole fucked up situation.. And advising me to be with someone, lol.

Of course, Azilah whom send a link to my wall, totally touch my heart la tetekcx

Not to forget, Ruzanna, fr always being there.

Yknow I thank god fr friends like all of you.

♥

Cause baby, i am not going back again

2011-03-21T17:56:00.000+08:00

HOW CLOSE IS CLOSE ENOUGH?

I just want to break you down so badly

2011-03-21T17:31:00.003+08:00

TODAY: BE HAPPY

TOMORROW: BE HAPPY

EVERYDAY: BE HAPPY

Let’s be friends as well as lovers.

2011-03-21T01:55:00.001+08:00

I wanted it to end nicely, so we could be friends. But I guess we fell apart too fast, you got over me too fast, you replaced me, way too fast.

But guess what, this too shall pass.

What the hell.

2011-02-17T14:09:00.000+08:00

I know it's been some time since i updated my blog.

Internet was down, and i was extremely busy with work.

Three off days, yeay.

Doing nothing productive right now.

Waiting fr 8pm or so, belanja-ing my family to a buffet!

K macam faham, gona eat out, first time i belanja so i like excited likethat uh, heh.

Gona delete my blog anytime soon.

Thiz iz it~

Updated~

2011-02-10T16:10:00.000+08:00

xxxx,

2011-01-11T01:44:00.000+08:00

It's rly annoying when i don't wana tell people my result and they force me..

Will it kill you if you don't know my result?! ~_~

Obviously i don't wana tell because i have a reason right.

Yeh, i didn't do well fr my O's, but i guess i expected this..

i have to wake up to reality~

SHO CHEAP.

2011-01-05T19:07:00.000+08:00

I wanna get a flower frills jumper fr only $11.90 but it's sleeveless and i have really low-esteem.

SIGH, doubt it'll look good on me anyway.

Having something to do.

2011-01-05T18:45:00.001+08:00

Hai, i wasted a day at home because of atuk.

But it's ok, i can't believe i cooked him breakfast and i bathed him and i did everything fr him today, hah hah.

I vacuumed and mopped the floor then i got hooked on the laptop, duh.

Atuk haven't slept since morning, so i hope he won't stir up troubles tonight. *cross toes*

It's a downpour here in Tampines right naooo, i luvvvvv the breeze.

And it's flooding under my block, so I wonder what it's like fr people who lives on the first floor.

Zzzzzz~

Anyway, did i tell you guys i finally found a job?!

Haha hehe huhu, yeh i did and it's only 5 mins walk from my house.

Thank god i don't have to waste on transportation and food cause i'd get them at home anyway.

But duh, the pay isn't that high so i'm thinking of doing part time work at night, yeay i love having something to do~

I heard that 'O' level results will be either the 10th/11th/12th.

Ok i'm scared shitless. :|

Is that normal?

2011-01-05T12:51:00.001+08:00

What the.....

=O!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sometimes i scare myself to death

2011-01-05T02:11:00.000+08:00

Haha every single night, i fucking admit. :B

Joy of my life~

2011-01-03T16:15:00.000+08:00

I spend eve of 2011 with a tiny bit of Blue Hoodies.

And then Ruzanno send me off at Pasr Ris where i met Zlfdhli.

Went to his family chalet after that.

Laughing my ass off with his cousins and all till it strikes midnight.

Headed home at 230am cause my head was killing me.

So, yeh that was it.

Mum was countdown-ing wth her friends when i got home, hah hah hah i kid.

Got up and got all ready fr Aziloh birthday, she finally turned 17 on new year!

Waited fr the birthday girl fr quite some time cause she was out with her mum, nyahah~

So like usual, we surprised her and she went all shy fr no reason hahahah, love them to bits.

<3

The planners;

We decorate while waiting;

Waiting fr the birthday girl to arrive;

Surprised her and all~

Then we went up to her house fr ohmnomnom Tomyam and butter prawns and oat prawns with fish and sambal plus the birthday cake of courseeee;

After filling our stomachs, we headed home, nyahahah~

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Bird bird bird birdy~

2010-12-16T19:22:00.000+08:00

I luv my life nao, i feel so happy likethat..

Except fr the fact that i've not gotten myself a job ah shite.

But i'm free...... Like a bird.

"If i'm a bird, i'd shit on you".

HAHAHAHAHA, BAI.

~_~

weareforever.com

2010-12-15T22:13:00.000+08:00

Oh hai, this is my 300th post.

I feel like deleting my blog, nyet~

I paitau my friends twice and i feel so bad about it.

But it cannot be helped, it's not like i want to.

Big sigh~

Anyhoo, i've watched Rapunzel A Tangled Tale and Haunted House Project.

Nao naooooo, who wana watch Let Me In and Gulliver's Travel with me?

Oh, Azilah's birthday is on the new year, fuckyeaaaaaa~

Where did i go wrong, i lost a friend..

2010-12-07T15:30:00.000+08:00

I love Shafiee playing this song with his drums, damn cool please.

accept.

2010-12-03T15:03:00.001+08:00

10 Day Challenge

Yuh ok, i'm so blardy bored right now.

Day 1: Ten random facts about yourself.

1. i'm tall.

2. sometimes i feel ugly.

3. i like daring myself to do things i fear of. eg, going on a roller coaster or walk into a haunted house etc etc.

4. i've tried dieting to lose weight but it didn't last fr a week.

5. i'm no good at discipline, heh.

6. i love cats but i love my cat most.

7. i hardly get sick, i get sick like only 4 times a year, and when i do, i fall really sick.

8. i always show my feelings, be it angry or happy or sad etc etc.

9. i can grow fat easily and lose weight easily.

10. i don't know how to turn a guy away nicely.

Day 2: Nine things you do everyday.

1. sleep.

2. check ph fr new messages.

3. shower.

4. internet on ph.

5. eat.

6. clean the house.

7. laze around.

8. call zlfdhli.

9. think about everything.

Day 3: Eight things that annoy you.

1. people who always think they are right.

2. people who are sarcastic fr no reason.

3. when somebody keep reminding me of the things i have to do.

4. when somebody lies to me when i know the truth, ugh.

5. when it's period time.

6. when there's a leakage due to excessive loss of blood. -.-

7. when i have pimples.

8. when i don't know what to wear.

Day 4: Seven fears/phobias.

1. ghosts.

2. losing somebody i really love - but it happens to me all ze time.

3. on a really high building with really short/no railings.

4. food from Malaysia. :/

5. to be awake when everyone else is asleep.

6. seeing somebody get beaten up.

7. cockroaches.

Day 5: Six songs that you’re addicted to.

1. hey hey.

2. hey soul sister.

3. knock you down.

4. almost lover.

5. what if.

6. how to save a life.

Day 6: Five things you can’t live without.

1. phone.

2. money.

3. clothes.

4. home.

5. fan.

Day 7: Four memories you won’t forget.

1. Everything that happened with Zlfdhli.

2. Holidays with family every year, last time..

3. Picnics with The Everydays.

4. Whore.

Day 8: Three words you can’t go a day without using.

1. G'morning.

2. love.

3. G'night.

Day 9: Two things you wish you could do.

1. be out fr a day or two.

2. exercise.

Day 10: One person you can trust.

1. Noone.

Try being in my shoes.

2010-11-29T20:56:00.001+08:00

I've been having a lot of problems.

I don't understand why people want to make things difficult when they can have it easy.

I've never believe that violence resolves things.

Because from what i see and even experience, it's only making things worse.

You're resorting to violence only because you think your words didn't have a huge impact on me...

Just so yknow, everything you said can bother me fr months, or prolly forever.

Whether you say sorry anot, i still havta forgive, right?

Well... I'm in no fucking position to say anything.

I love you so much i cry my eyeballs out just thinking of you, but i really dislike you.

Irony much, ha!

Blue Hoodies' We're too cool fr you!

2010-11-24T13:41:00.000+08:00

TpRawks was a-awesome!

Hahahah yuh, i wasn't really looking forward to it at first.

But in the end, i wish there was a day 4 and 5 and 6 and yah, so on..

I know people might say that i'm exaggerating this but hell no, it was beyond fun!

NO WORDS CAN DESCRIBE IT, ESPECIALLY AT JAM & HOP.

And fuck yeah, i was in Blue Hoodie!!

And this is my group, hehehe;

We went to school of engineering and school of IT and also school of applied science.

There's smth like you have experiment on animals and also like making of 3D movies and crime investigator and being a DJ or movie director.

Damn syiok please, but i realise that TP needs smart people like between 10-16 points. :/

Besides the extremely interesting courses we went to, we played games!

When we've got nothing to do, we sit and play games like ice breakers and etc etc.

Then our PLs demonstrate us our forfeits, heheheh so cute right;

But they also plan very interesting games fr us like;

This game is crazy, we could hardly pour water on our partner's helmet! D=

But nothing's impossible with the help of our loving PL's!

This was the running-to-table game and there's smth you need to do at each table!

I was second cause i don't wana be running to the 15th table, right?!

Haha, and at the second table, i had to eat wasabe(?), gosh tell me about it!!!!!! D'=

There were many other games on the first and second day and yes, again, it was hell fun!

We had Jam & Hop on the 3rd & final day!

Sleeq, then The Goodfellas and DJ Andrew totally did good to our nights.

I let my hair down and some girls were grinding me and i went WHAT THE.....

Yah, you totally got my drift.

But girls grinding me are so much better than boys, right?!

I can't pick alot of photos cause majority of it, i'm in it!!!!

Hahahah wtf, the camerawoman must have a fetish fr me or smth eh. :P

I hope the Blue Hoodies have an outing soon, woohoo~~

Selamat hari raya aidiladha.

2010-11-17T22:05:00.001+08:00

"He thinks i'm pretty without any make up on."

Selamat hari raya aidiladha, everyone.

First and last house was at Naf's.

Eveyone was there, so yea.

Thank god we live in the same town, hahehu.

There's tprawks tmr, so excited please but so lazy to wake up early. =S

Yuuuuuh, lazy bones activated. Lol.

Probably watching Zlfdhli performing fr dikir or smth this sun.

Red camp with Azilah next week.

She so naise please, going there fr the sake of accompanying me. ^.^

Then out with the 7s and maybe with Sokkan & Ruzanna & Hadila.

Work on Friday till a week aft.

Shall look fr a week aft that very very very soon.

I can't rely on mum fr $$$ cause i know i'm gona spend alot. :/

Oscar.

2010-11-16T14:15:00.000+08:00

Oscar is next to me 24/7 when he's not locked.

H sleeps to me, lie next to me, scrub his face on me, wait on me while i'm having my bath..

Most annoying thing is, he ~~fucking~~ snores.

Like right now, zzzzzzz.

>:(

hidup suka menyusahkan orang..

2010-11-16T12:28:00.000+08:00

Alalala, kiyut nyerrrrrr~

Afternoon, i was up early today!

On days without plans, i'm usually out of bed and doing housework at 1plus 2.

But i got up by 9 and finished housework by 11 today.

Know why?

Because atuk was disturbing my sleep the whole night.

He peed in the study room and living room at 4, so i got up to mop the house.

In the morning, mum and bro were making noises because atuk hid our stuffs. -.-

While doing the house chores, i found abang's watch and mums' stuff. ^.^

Mum got back from pasar and told me that atuk peed at the kitchen.

What the farrrrrrrrk, he peed at 3 different places in a day.

I'm so pissed with him that i wana raise my voice so much.

So to avoid that, i avoid him.

He talks to me and i ignore him because aku bingit nak mampus k.

Zlfdhli has got no training today but malas nak keluar please.

Prolly i should ask him over.

K bai, gamesgames.com calling me.

WORK.

2010-11-15T23:26:00.000+08:00

Olevel is oveeeeeeer.

Had a mini getaway to some villa at jb.

Fuck yeahhhh, feeling2 rich hahahahahahaahahhahahah.

I've got a schedule of my week.

I've got so many plans la please, from meeting friends to camp and work.

Ahuuuuh, temporary work only, it's a week work.

So obviouslyyyyyyy, i'm in need of a job after 2nd December.

I need a work near my home, somewhere like tm or cs or t1 pleaseeeeeee.

I remember mum accompanying me to my interview last year but i'm a big gurl now. =(

AND I SO CAN'T WORK IN THE F&B LINE.

Ok bye.

A week to freedom.

2010-11-06T01:45:00.000+08:00

Yea i know, kening tak boleh angkat but who cares

Since Olevel started, life have been crazy.

Idk, crazy in my heart and mind, like totally.

I get this craziness when i'm all stressed up.

Lots of pimples popping and hair fall plus outgrown eyebrows.

But guess whuat? I pulled through.

3 more papers to go and i'm doneeeeee-zo!

I'm tired of memorizing SS, i'm giving up on Venice.

Yea, tell me bout it, i'm ready to fail Combined Humanities.

Cause history totally pulled my confidence down, fuckkkkkkkkk.

Gona start on f&n tmr, Azilah said i've got A LOT to study.

There you go brain, you've had more than enough rest the past months anyway.

Been studying outside, usually at airport or mac, usual places.

With Ruzanna, and Hadila... Even with Zlfdhli.

Incredibly unbelievable, no? (just exaggerating this, gah~)

Hm, did i missed anyone out?

Feel like i did, but nope, i suppose not. :>

Naow, not even the strongest person in the world can carry my eyelids.

SO GOD DAMN SLEEPY.

2010-10-22T14:48:00.000+08:00

I brought this caterpillar back home one fine day!

Then i put him under my block, so i hope this extreeeemely beautiful caterpillar turns into a pretty butterfly!

Okay so olevel alr started and i'm blogging?

Omg wtf am i kidding with?

Zzzzzz, going to school early today!

It wasn't the same hug you used to give me

2010-10-14T18:05:00.000+08:00

I wanted to stay the same.. But feelings fade and people change.

I once read,

'Did you ever notice, when people tell you you’ve changed, its only because you stopped acting the way they want you to act.'

Truth is, sometimes, i miss the one you acted to be.

its a lie, this whole thing is a lie

>:(

zlfdhli.

2010-10-09T21:56:00.000+08:00

Slept over at Naf's house yday, and will head there again later.

Town with zlfdhli today.

Thanks fr everything hor, <3

Tudu tudu tudu~

2010-10-08T16:33:00.000+08:00

Erfyshad been showing me this video, irritating nak mampus but cannot deny, cute.

School was fine, just that my throat is killing me.

Met zlfdhli aft school fr lunch at mac before he head fr work, hehehe.

Had cinnamon melts and we shared fries, we were so full.

Can't wait fr tmr now, uhuuuuu. ^^

Get over yourself.

2010-10-07T16:18:00.000+08:00

When haters keep hating, tell them to bring it on.

I'm sorry fr all the mean things I've done, but you don't have to get back at me that way.

And yknow what's the best part of your plan?

Stealing them away from me, so i'll fall and no one's there to pick me up.

It doesn't take alot to take out the bitch in me, i hope you don't cross the line.

A week or so and i'm done and over with you, :>

Thank ~~god~~ Allah.

believing.

2010-10-07T15:49:00.000+08:00

Hi, i lost my school shoes yesterday.

Sengket nak mampos pencuri tu, padahal kasut $6.90 ajer.

I've got night study in school later on, and every weekdays from now onwards till yea, the end of o's.

No life, no life, no life.

I doubt i'll make it to poly, cause I've not been studying, not even enough to cover the basics. =/

Chaos about some stuff at home and everyone gets so frightened when the sun's gone.

But thank god i managed to sleep alone in the room last night.

Well, fuck it, I've had enough of being scared.

I just finished watching Astro boy the movie fr the third time and i'm still crying.

Hahahahahah k aku kental.

Designer shades to cover that face

2010-09-28T16:48:00.001+08:00

Today i didn't attend school, stomach cramps.

Attendance getting from bad to worse after i got my prelim results, horrendous.

You can say i'm giving up alr, but i've got to hang on.

Cause the everydays said that this is the last lap.

One month to go and i'm done with it.

Yeeeees, i can do this.

I got to meet Zulfadhli fr an hour or so before he went to work today.

Yeay, now Thursday please come fast?

THURSDAY.

2010-09-27T22:57:00.000+08:00

Hi baby, i miss you so much.

For once, can the whole of your clan be in our shoes?

Perangai takmuh irritaing uh satu2, shiyol ah.

Family and friends.

2010-09-26T03:11:00.000+08:00

Me luv mum. ♥

Hai, i know i've not updated fr quite some time.

I don't think anyone reads my page anymore, anyway.

Raya with family was as kecoh-able as ever.

But i swear my baju kurung on first day sucks like hell, hate it hate it hate it.

Raya with friends were awesome.

A bit of quarrels here and there (fr me) but everything went fine.

Uhuuuuuu, yknow me luv you guys and girls.

Thanks a bunch load to those (chey, actually 5 people only xD) who came over fr my open house today.

I didn't asked anyone to come, but Zulfadhli pandai memandai ajak orang. xD

But its okay, i'm more than glad that they came.

Cause actually i shy to ajak people, hurhur.

And those who called me on phone, saying sorry fr not being able to come, it's alright~

;)

Now, i'm sho exhausted from all the clearing ups.

Goodnight.

ex and jerks.

2010-09-15T02:05:00.000+08:00

I never get jealous when I see my ex with someone else cause my parents taught me to give my used toys to the less fortunate.

HAHAHAHAHAH, AMIK KAU.

But honestly, i don't have an ex to say this to. O.o

Control, control, control, it's all bout' controlling. HAHAHAHAH.

2010-09-14T12:15:00.021+08:00

Photobucket's being a bitch, i can't even get into the website, so bear with no pictures. :>

On sunday, everyone was complaining about school yesterday.

And my examinations was still on.....

But its okay, yesterday got home at 9plus, today at 11plus.

Hehehe, i like reaching home early after examinations.

Prelim's finally over, but o's are nearing, and i've not studied enough. ='O!!!!!

Today, somebody made me waste a trip down to somewhere.

I made an effort to do it, and now, I feel so cheated.
Yknow the feeling when you expect someone to do something more than just saying?

That disappointing feeling, and the feeling of tears gathering in your eyes?

The least that someone could do, was to make an effort.
So i've switched my phone off, dah pandai run away dari orang dah. ^^

Now let's see how you'll say sorry fr the things you didn't meant to say just now.

='D

I got home and screamed my lungs out like nobody's business then mum told me to shut up cause my sister is not in a good mood.

Ooooh, so i vacuum and mopped the floor, machiam daily routine likethat lah kan.

Since Erika's friends are raya-ing today, i scrubbed the toilet clean and i tidied the house.

Sparkling clean alr now, cheyyyyyy~

So... Anyone willing to get me my rolling stone dress fr only 25bux, please?

Hahahahah k no.

Did i tell you that i've spend over 60 bucks in a week fr online shopping?

Mum don't wana give me allowance alr, she said i've spend and got enough money.

But my money's gone just like that!!!!

I. Have. To. Control.

Yeay, no school tmr.

Woop woop~~

Sometimes and always is two different issues, k.

2010-09-14T00:26:00.001+08:00

Today, step up 3 with Zulfadhli.

We had lunch cum dinner at burger king.

Our Pizzahut tak happen2 since last week, hmmmzxz.

Then at night, ate at bedok with abang, mum and Erika.

I had Fried kway teow kerang, hahahah sodaaaap~

Actually i'm not a fan of kerang but i like it, hahahahah. -.-

I studied fr fnn the moment i got home and till 1215am, now my eyes cannot tahan.

But important and bold chapters are the ones i'm not studying fr, too much to study. :<

I feel like bitch slapping someone's face right now, muka maintain eh favour.

Oh and i'm uploading lebaran photos on fb, insyaallah.

ohm nom nom.

2010-09-08T14:51:00.000+08:00

It's raining and internet connection is soooooo slow.

Today, i'm gona have nasi goreng kerang with Zulfadhli at Restu, fuck yeah.

NASI GORENG KERANG FTW~~

I'm so not turning back.

2010-09-08T02:41:00.000+08:00

"She will chase you for awhile, but there's going to be a day when she's going to stop running in circles around you. She's going to get over you and at that very moment you're going to wish you had let her catch you."

You had your chance but you blew it away.

Today erika happy, i also happy.

2010-09-08T02:25:00.000+08:00

OKAY THIS MADE ME LAUGH.

(got this from Naf)

Today, united square with Erika to get her a ballet shoe @ cotton on kids.

Ended up buying a shoe @ collettee, which i've seen at tm.

Waste my bloody 2 hours. T_T

Intention was to break fast at Pizzahut, but was full.

So, burger king.

Walked around then home.

K dah bye, i miss babi.

kidding.

2010-09-07T03:48:00.000+08:00

Fiee

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I_S_TbD1XFM&ob=av3n

my new GF!!

tgk vid tu lawa tau dia!

she soooooo beautifulllllllll!!

btw she look like you hahahaahaah!

3:33am
Me

Ahahahahah!

Omg, i was about to say she's not that pretty, but now i think she is. xD

3:34am
Fiee

she look like you right?

3:34am
Me

in what way? no seh! ahahhahaha!

3:34am
Fiee

hmmmmmmm....

yup she look like you, if u slim down lil bit

well i love girl tat are sweet lady like not rugart.

rugart skt2 okea ah

hahahahahahahahaha!

but she has nice voice

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I_S_TbD1XFM&ob=av3n

nie part dia look swit

So firstly, i'm abit honoured.

Secondly, he's trying to say i'm kinda over-weight. -.-

Four people told me i look like Selena Gomez, padahal no.

She's like so cute please, i'm nowhere near her.

Facebook says i'm like Demi Lovato, not so surprising cause she looks like Selena Gomez anyway.

But Alison Sudol?

Woah, you gota be kidding.

happy birthday, babies.

2010-09-07T03:07:00.000+08:00

Hai, i'm happy.

I'm kinda pissed with some stuffs but heck, i'm so looking on the brighter side. ^^

(i'm sorry i love your face in this pic, alot)

So anyway, happy 17th birthday.

I'm sorry if it wasn't a good celebration just now, the weather and time literally ruined everything.

Yknow i'm no good at words.

Yang penting, i love you, always.

ALWAYS.

Happy birthday to Zulfahmi and Andi and Tara too.

♥

surprises.

2010-09-01T01:39:00.000+08:00

n_n

Okay hai.

I wana tell everyone that i'm gona sleep smile these few days, uhuuuu.

I know abit too exagerating but i love my friends.

I can't deny that they're not high-enders or labelled or cool town kids, but i can ensure that they are the friends who are gona stick around, even if you're going down.

So i had my Monday blues on like any other Mondays but it was my birthday, ikr.

School was dry and extremely draggy, i had mood fr nothing.

Effa was coming some time soon fr her chemistry notes.

She waited 20 bloody minutes because i fell asleep, hehehe sorry. <3

I went down with my smelly face, and she surprised me with two pressie, eheheheh i like.

I send her to the bustop with my boxers and opened my gift there.

I've got 17 chocolates and a bagpack.

I swear i could almost cry but i didn't cause i still had my lazy eyes on.

But anyhoo, thankyou so much fr the presents, and yknow i love you (eventhough you wished me a tad late hehehe).

Then after breaking fast, i met Ruzanna under my block with the same tee and boxer.

We walked and walked and walked till idk where!

Was talking to her when Hadila and Azilah sang a birthday song from behind.

HEHEHE I SUKA ALSO.

Wanted to cry but couldn't, too touch alr.

They gave me a birthday card, watch as a present, a cake, wintermelon tea and NASI GORENG KERANG ZOMG!!!!!!

I had a crave fr nasi goreng kerang fr idk how long and i got it on my birthday, hehehe be jealous.

Then i asked them to cut the cake with my family as well.

ALL SO FRICKING SHY, I ABIT BINGIT YKNOW, MUAHAHHAAH.

But they finally got to my house, so we cut the cake together and i send them off to the bustop.

The planners (plus an eye of mine, muahahah);

School today was fun because it was teacher's day celebration.

Yesterday was full of surprises and cutting of cake with family so i cannot go out righttttt.

So today, i went to town the geylang with b.

I know you all must be wondering who b is, right, muahahah.

Supposed to meet him at 430 but this boy ahh, went out of the house at 448 likethat when i alr reaching inter.

Who wouldn't be angry right, belated birthday girl must wait, hello?!

But now bulan ramadhan, must banyak bersabar, tsktsk.

Saw hadila and fahmi in the mrt, shock like =O!!!

Headed to town, collect his pay, he bought dkny jean's tee, then we looked fr my Birkenstock.

Cause my sister gave me money to get myself one, woohoo.

But sadly, no size. :<

We went to Wendy's to break fast lah.

Then minutes later, Hadila and Fahmi also came by.

We sat tgthr, like double-date likethat, i know we sho cute. T_T

The boys had the same meal, the girls had the same meal.

Then we separated aft breaking of fast, and i went in search of my Birkenstock again.

I wanted the pink strap so bad, but not my luck, no size so i ended up with the black ones.

Hmm okaylah, still as happy. ^^

Then we headed to geylang to search fr my 2nd baju kurung.

Thank god, i finally found one after so many rounds of searching (okay bedek).

By 10, we were already so exhausted so we headed home.

I end the photo with this;

OKAY THERE YOU GO, B.

Now yknow why i'll smile during sleep?

You would too, if you were me. ^^

♥

oh, sexy.

2010-08-30T09:19:00.000+08:00

Dyou know what they do to second chances? The same they did to the first.

Atleast i hope not - trust. =/

I hear a different name, every.single.day.

I don't know how long more i can take this.

But yknow, like you said 'make us happen again', let's really make it happen?

Hmmmmmmmm..

Now b, i miss you so.

So, i'm 17th today.

Hmmmm, what's the big deal?

b.

2010-08-27T17:17:00.000+08:00

Hai.

I think i've been spending too much time with b, bahahah! <3

I missed out yesterday's break fast with the other 6, hmmmmmmmmm.

Anyhoo, i found this at Naf's blog;

1. One & Only. Your girlfriend should be your one & only. Make her feel special, k guys ? You’re lucky to have her even if she’s lucky to have you too. We know there are prettier out there but we like feeling as if we’re the only beautiful one in your eyes, & the only one you see.

2. “Ladies first.” No. That rule doesn’t apply to communication. Don’t wait for her call, text, IM, why don’t you try talking to her first for a change ? It’s thoughtful & sweet if a guy can actually do that.

3. Surprise her. You don’t have to drive an hour to her house at 3 a.m. to set off her name in fireworks in front of her window, but the little things are big things. A simple, good morning text, is more powerful than you think.

4. What insecurities ? For the love of god, all girls have insecurities. Please don’t point them out. For example, today I was looking at food & my boyfriend said “You eat a lot. You probably could beat me at a buffet.” WHAT. THAT’S NOT WHAT YOU SAY. Also, let her be herself. If she’s having a bad hair day, don’t make fun of her if it’s hurtful. Let her wear sweatpants & still feel pretty damn cute around you, even when she’s not looking her best.

5. Act the same around your friends. You’re not a real man if you completely blow off your girl in front of your homeboys. When you’re going to hang out with her & your friends you better not run off & leave her standing there to greet them like WUDDUPPP GUYSSS.. NO, you better at least walk with her & introduce her to them if you haven’t already. If you walk with her hand in hand, she’ll love it.

6. When she’s mad. Dude, you better try & get her back. Chase her, whatever it is, don’t let her walk away when she’s mad at you. It shows you don’t care enough to go after her. Don’t let her go.

7. Maintain. If you did a bunch of cute things with her before, try & keep it up. You don’t have to go all out everyday for her, but don’t stop completely just because you got her already.

8. Honesty. If you lie to her, you’re going to have one hell of a time regaining that trust because she’ll start questioning everything you’ve said or done for her, no matter how small that lie was. Fess up or get lost.

9. Trust. If your girl really doesn’t like one of your friends, trust, she has good reason to. Girls’ intuition -shrug- So don’t go hanging with your homegirl all the time if you know your girlfriend doesn’t like that bitch. She usually won’t hate for no reason. Respect her.

The memories don't wana forget me yet.

2010-08-20T09:27:00.000+08:00

Hai, i'm confused, you are? =(

Bazaar, slipper, burger ramly, ayam, ice cream, mata tujuh, rokok......

2010-08-20T09:05:00.000+08:00

Wink, ;)

Yesterday, was awesome. (y)

men...

2010-08-16T11:52:00.000+08:00

Like half an hour to break fast yesterday, my red friend visited me.

I was in a state of denial so i continued to fast and by 730, i alr confirmed it was really visiting me!!!!!! >:(

WHY DIDN'T YOU COME IN THE MORNING, INSTEAD?

Zzzzzzz.

I couldn't put myself to sleep last night eventhough i was really sleepy.

Because somebody got me thinking real hard.

I was wishing so hard that my head would stop making conversations. T.T

I finally slept at after 330am, then woke up at 430am and got back to sleep at 5+am.

Tak macam si..... Ugh.

So i'm home now with stomach cramps. =D

stripped down and torn up about it.

2010-08-13T14:07:00.001+08:00

Nothing feels right when i'm not with you,

sick of these dress and these jimmy choo's.

Headlock me, will ya?

2010-08-13T13:32:00.000+08:00

Sho cute. xD

Only to clean up the mess she left you with.

2010-08-13T10:14:00.001+08:00

"God places people in your life for a reason."

I'm just another option, aren't i?

You were having the time of your life when i was crying my heart out,

2010-08-13T09:17:00.003+08:00

'A friend next to you when you're crying worths fifty friends next to you at your party.'

-Sir God

Abey kalau ada bestfriend tapi macam takda, macam mana?
Sorry sape2 terasa.

advanced national day

2010-08-06T13:00:00.000+08:00

Like all the other schools in Singapore, my school celebrated national day today.

But to be honest, this year's celebration is plain.

There were not much marching (or maybe there wasn't any?), plus no band, and limited national day songs.

Worse of all, we weren't allowed to wear red tees, burrrrr much?

But the best part was sing-along in the hall, hahahah!

Okay so i had breakfast with Effa, Mirah, Zul and Faanaa plus Najib at teh tarik.

And later, i is watching Salt with MGW a.k.a emo girl, hurhur~

i was happy.

2010-08-02T09:07:00.000+08:00

Did you think about what i said last night?

Knowing you, you probably didn't.

I could picture your face on the other side.

Completely oblivious.

I'm sorry, but screw you and your ego.

i better find you loving, i better find your heart.

2010-07-30T09:01:00.000+08:00

Your selfishness is dividing us in two.

Why are you so oblivious?

='/

The worst thing about crossing a line is when you don't know you alr have someone.

2010-07-27T17:51:00.000+08:00

Had fun? I hope you did. _l_

Being good is so overrated.

2010-07-24T01:34:00.002+08:00

I watched Despicable Me 3D with L at Cathay century, for 6 bucks.

It was actually a 2d movie when they stopped the movie about 5 minutes after it started and announced that they're playing a 3D movie fr all of us.

So like duh, we were excited as hell.

Not because I've never watched 3D movie (cause the first time i did was with Erika), but because we paid only 6 bucks fr it.

I love Cathay, i love Cathay, i love Cathay. =D

So anyway, this movie was so adorable.

I like every.single.part of it, hurhur.

Wanted to have dinner at ljs, then bk, then kfc, then ended up at mac.

Ohoh, i saw Naf at kfc, and Fadh at mac. :)

I've got to watch she's out of my league, soon.

Then (i know tatau malu), but i wana watch hot tub time machine soon, as well! ^^

Don't judge a book by its cover.

2010-07-23T15:12:00.000+08:00

9974) Sometimes I hate myself out of guilt.

Honestly, most of the times.

The problem lies with me.

2010-07-23T15:02:00.002+08:00

I want you, but i can't be with you..

I warned you of me, didn't i?

2010-07-23T09:44:00.001+08:00

One-third of the things i say are lies.

well baby, keep it going.

2010-07-23T09:35:00.001+08:00

Merajuk with mr. freak.

Not gona talk to him, till i feel like talking.

Thanks a f lot. -.-

I HATE SCHOOL.

Not gona update regularly alr, only updating if i have time.

Prelim's are coming, so is olevels.

So long~

Love.

2010-07-16T10:49:00.000+08:00

Today's the 16th.

Happy 1 year and 8 days to me.

And happy 3rd to L.
♥♥♥

waka waka eh eh

2010-07-15T16:32:00.000+08:00

Somebody told me to buang blog kat laut..

Just because i've not been updating regularly.

SO YEA, HERE I AM IN NEEDLE WORK ROOM, UPDATING. =D

I waited fr Effa aft school today, to share my peanut buttercup with her.

But she wasn't around till my peanut buttercup even melted on my fingers, =(

Today i cried because they hid my mp3, hahahah.

So kental, please.

But still sayang korgs, ♥

K bai.

Well baby, make me believe.

2010-07-09T09:43:00.000+08:00

I'm cold, but i'm hot.

They say i like to contradict.

This feeling's taking control of me, i'm sorry.

Oh every time i close my eyes, i see my name in shining lights.

2010-06-30T10:02:00.001+08:00

This time baby, I'll be bulletproof

You don't know how bad it feels, cause you were the one i believed in aft so long.
Maybe i could use a dream, a genie, or a wish to go back to a place much simpler than this.

Though i can be a lil' fragile inside......

2010-06-29T17:13:00.001+08:00

I'm confused.

And I'm a heartbreaker.

Bet you don't know bout' that.

Gay day.

2010-06-25T13:09:00.001+08:00

Haaaaai.

I love 23rd June, eventhough i told Hadila she's born on the wrong day cause it was raining when we met.

HAHAHAHA, sorry eyy kidding!

It was one of the happiest day this month, besides the 16th. ^^

So on 23rd, made the birthday girl wait fr me fr over half an hour because i "woke up late", hahah!

Walked to tm and century square and T1, where she got her birthday present from me and surprise from all of us.

The birthday girl!

The planners;

The birthday girl and the planners;

At 4, we all went separate ways and i met L.

Simei, then ljs at tampines, then we met the birthday girl under her block.

We saw many familiar faces, oh god, tell about it. ;/

A: "Beanie aku basah."
L: 'Bini aku basah', sounds so wrong.
Wtf, hahahah!

I better start hitting the books, and finish my homeworks!

I have to start on my History first cause Mr Danial says we've got 10 mindmaps to pass up when school reopens.

And Chemistry and Maths and Physics as well.

u_u

2010-06-22T18:16:00.000+08:00

I'm a happy girl.

And that is all that matters now.

I said it - If this is good, we've got to last.

What if......

2010-06-18T16:02:00.001+08:00

Haaaaaaaaaaai.

On my so-called second, i watched karate kid at town.

Thank god it wasn't flooding when i was there.

I forgot to check birkenstock out cause i was busy being happy.

Planning to get one with three straps.

Pretty, ain't ittttttt? >=D

Mum was literally sleeping yesterday eventhough it was her birthday.

So we might be going to Woodlands (where i get the best butter prawns at) this Saturday.

But we passed her her presents and we cut the cake, duh.

She got herself a lot of stuff from the siblings.

I want a braun buffel fr my birthday, the jeans i saw at topshop or the one at zara, a pair of birkenstock and uhm, i'll think of more.

u_u

I get really agitated when i ask someone something and someone have to fucking ignore my question.

I'm gona stop asking, and stop telling.

Urgh. @#$%^#$%!!!!!

School's starting soon, burrrrr.

can't you see this heart yearning?

2010-06-13T15:43:00.000+08:00

I miss L. :<

NurAisha; not you, not us.

happy.

I'm a fucking mess.

Look at me standing strong.

To anyone.

We could have had it all.

MY LIFE'S ALL GLITTER AND RAINBOWS, BITCH.

Five god damn years.

Me is too cool fr school.

Nah the same applies.

Love love love i want your loveeeeeee

Meeeeeeeeeow~

picnik.

YOU. ME. BED.

This hurts so, much.

You're worth nothing.

So lets go back to the first time i saw you.

It would be fair if you fell fr me

REMEMBER, WE ARE SLUTS!

Innocent gesture.

Fuck yea strong girls.

Meowwwww~

My ex, my primary 6 buddy, my friend.

Nothing, i tell you, nothing.

Sometimes I just feel so lost.

It has always been about you.

You had me. You had me and then you left. It has nothing to do with me, it’s all about you. And it’s always been about you: what you need and what you want. You know, it seems like you only want me when you can’t have me. You like the chase and that’s all. So you know what? You can have it.

Auntie love you sho much, shayang.

It really hits me.

You did me good.

HAPPINESS IS A FUCKING CHOICE.

NO ONE LOVES YOU LIKE I DO.

Cause baby, i am not going back again

I just want to break you down so badly

Let’s be friends as well as lovers.

What the hell.

Updated~

SHO CHEAP.

Having something to do.

Is that normal?

sometimes i scare myself to death

Joy of my life~

Bird bird bird birdy~

weareforever.com

Where did i go wrong, i lost a friend..

accept.

Try being in my shoes.

Blue Hoodies' We're too cool fr you!

Selamat hari raya aidiladha.

Oscar.

hidup suka menyusahkan orang..

WORK.

A week to freedom.

It wasn't the same hug you used to give me

zlfdhli.

Tudu tudu tudu~

Get over yourself.

believing.

Designer shades to cover that face

THURSDAY.

Family and friends.

ex and jerks.

I never get jealous when I see my ex with someone else cause my parents taught me to give my used toys to the less fortunate.

Control, control, control, it's all bout' controlling. HAHAHAHAH.

Sometimes and always is two different issues, k.

ohm nom nom.

I'm so not turning back.

"She will chase you for awhile, but there's going to be a day when she's going to stop running in circles around you. She's going to get over you and at that very moment you're going to wish you had let her catch you."

Today erika happy, i also happy.

kidding.

Fiee

3:33amMe

3:34amFiee

3:34amMe

3:34amFiee

happy birthday, babies.

surprises.

oh, sexy.

b.

The memories don't wana forget me yet.

3:33am
Me

3:34am
Fiee

3:34am
Me

3:34am
Fiee